February was a powerful month. The month that inconsequential but pervasive fears presented themselves in my life. The month I allowed myself to feel fear and conquer it because there is not really any other way around it.
I felt fear returning to our new home. We had only lived in it for 2 hectic weeks before leaving for Portugal for 6 weeks. Is this Home? How will my son adjust? As soon as we opened the door of our house, doubts faded. Although numerous boxes are still packed, it is our home! I see so much magic happening in this place that I can’t even contain a grin writing this sentence. Thank you universe!
Then, aerial yoga started just a few days after our return to the island. I was so excited when my friend Anahareo offered these classes that I signed up right away. You see, as many kids, I always secretly wanted to be part of the circus, an aerialist of some sort. The problem is that gymnastics were never (ever!) my forte. I was trilled to finally live my “circus dream”. As the date got closer, apprehension grew. I hadn’t done any yoga practice for almost 2 months and the thought of tangling up in the air suspended by some “flimsy” silks made my stomach churn. When Anahareo cued an inversion in the first 10 minutes of the first class, my heart sank! That first morning was a bit ridiculous and felt a bit defeated but then something shifted. I thought, “Seriously Paula what is the worse that can happen? Fall a foot from the ground? This is about having fun!” The following classes I might not have been graceful but I gave it all, giggled, and had such a blast! If you are looking for a safe but adrenaline inducing activity I dare you to try aerial yoga… you might get hooked!
I also sat in a meditation circle for the first time. As much as I think that my spiritual side and I get along, spending an evening with 20 women meditating for 3 hours is totally outside of my comfort zone. Still, I have always been curious about these type of circles and when I saw the event announcement I felt immediately drawn to it. Such typical silly fears of feeling awkward and not being “spiritual enough” to belong to the circle! So glad I participated and allowed myself to have a beautiful and powerful experience.
The fear of being in charge! SeaBerry Studios is now all mine! Elisabeth stepped down since she would have little time in the future to put into the project. It is terrifying but there is such a clear vision of what SeaBerry is going to be like that I could not quit. I will certainly be sharing the SeaBerry Journey with you!
March you are on! You will be a Make It Happen month but if you toss some “fears” at me I will not be afraid to face them.